Monday, April 2, 2007

Some Doctors, Friends, Relatives Dismiss Sickness

URL:    http://www.theledger.com/apps/pbcs.dll/article?AID=/20070402/NEWS/704020367/1004


Some Doctors, Friends, Relatives Dismiss Sickness

   As a teenager, Lakeland resident Jiwa Farrell was diagnosed with lupus,
   an autoimmune disease that affects mostly women and often mimics
   fibromyalgia and chronic fatigue syndrome.

It's easy to make personality judgments about people with fibromyalgia and
other chronic pain disorders. The patient's current lethargy and
inactivity can yield assumptions of lifelong laziness and aversion to
work.
Those diagnosed with the ailments say it's a common and frustrating
misconception.

"I don't think I have ever met a person with fibromyalgia who is lazy," 
said Lynne Matallana, president of the National Fibromyalgia Association. 
"Quite the opposite."

Matallana said a high percentage of fibromyalgia patients are "Type A" 
personalities who were high-achieving professionals before the illness
struck.
Matallana, 51, worked as a partner in a prominent advertising firm
and was athletic before she became ill in the early 1990s, eventually
spending two years in bed after being wrongly diagnosed with lupus.

Local patients have similar backgrounds. Martha Grierson of Winter Haven
worked long hours as a sales manager for a large corporation before
fibromyalgia prematurely ended her career. Lynn Anderson of Polk City used
to show horses in competitions, though fibromyalgia now prevents her from
even mounting a horse.

Lakeland's Laura Bodner, another fibromyalgia patient, formerly worked as
a firefighting trainer and exercised five days a week. Davenport resident
Millie Haddad was a nurse with a side business until being diagnosed with
chronic fatigue syndrome, and Teresa Kucera, a Lakeland resident with the
same disorder, worked as a medical assistant and said she "used to be like
a tornado."

Government medical agencies have recognized fibromyalgia and CFS as
legitimate disorders in the past decade or so, but patients say skepticism
remains commonplace, especially among general practitioners. Every
fibromyalgia patient seems to have at least one story of rude or
dismissive treatment from a doctor.

Grierson and other local patients said doctors have suggested their
problems are psychological rather than physical. "I've actually had a
doctor tell me I need mental health help, that it was all somatic, which
is a kind way of saying it's all in your head," Grierson said.

Bodner, 45, described the hostility she received from a local doctor after
seeking a refill of Darvocet, a prescription pain medicine.

"My daughter got real upset because she sees how much pain I'm in, and she
goes, 'Can't you just give her something that's going to help her instead
of Darvocet?'" Bodner said. "And (the doctor) said, 'I don't even like
giving her Darvocet because I think she's overreacting. Somebody who's got
fibromyalgia shouldn't be in this pain.' My daughter just went off on the
doctor. She was saying, 'You know, I wish you could just have it for one
week so you could see what my mother goes through.'"

Matallana said the lack of compassion and understanding from doctors
compounds the physical and emotional distress of the illness itself. "I
know in my case I just had the idea if you got sick you went to a doctor
and they treated you," Matallana said. "I never, ever imagined someone
would question my pain and my inability to function. That was to me almost
as bad as enduring the physical symptoms."


Confusion, skepticism

The transformation of dynamic people into suffering wrecks, without any
apparent cause, prompts confusion and questioning. Fibromyalgia patients
say even friends, relatives and spouses find it hard to accept the reality
of what has been called an invisible illness.

"Even my family was skeptical at first," said Randy Jones, a Dade City
resident who receives treatment for her fibromyalgia at Salazar Family
Clinic in Mulberry. "Even my husband, it was like, 'Maybe you just don't
want to get out of bed.' "

Jones, 60, admitted she had doubts about fibromyalgia before the illness
struck her in 2000, leaving her incapacitated for long periods. "Nobody
walks in your body but you, and how can one person say what another person
is feeling?" she said. "Why would I want to do this to myself?"

Grierson likewise has had friends and relatives question her condition.
"Some I thought would understand have accused me of being drug-seeking, of
being lazy, of doing this for attention," she said. "It's just awful the
things people will say because they don't understand
and it's not a common
thing and you don't carry scars on the outside of your body. It makes
coping with what's wrong with you that much worse because if you hear it
enough you begin to think maybe you are a little crazy. That's the
insidious thing of it."

If the medical world has been slow to accept fibromyalgia and other
chronic pain disorders, it's perhaps no surprise patients describe having
difficulties with medical coverage and government disability programs.

Grierson said she faced constant battles with her insurance company over
payments for treatments, and at one point when she lived in Pennsylvania a
doctor sued her over the plan's failure to pay medical bills. She had
equal trouble getting approved for Social Security Disability Income,
going through two years of denials before she hired a lawyer who helped
her prevail in a court hearing.

Bodner said she has twice been turned down for SSDI since applying last
year. She has enlisted a lawyer to help her push for the government
supplement.

Anderson has Medicare coverage, but she said the plan doesn't cover
massage therapy, the only treatment that offers her significant relief
because the effect is temporary. Her sister, Terry Anderson, became a
massage therapist after observing Lynn's ordeal, and she sometimes travels
from Pinellas County to offer her services.

Haddad, who required a court hearing before being approved for SSDI, said,
"It took a long time before I was able to collect disability because they
didn't believe this till a lot of doctors started getting the disease
themselves."


'The F-Word'

Dr. Patrick Wood, an assistant professor of medicine at Louisiana State
University, decided to specialize in fibromyalgia in part because it was a
verboten term during his training. As Wood points out, many diseases now
universally accepted - including malaria, asthma and Parkinson's - were
previously dismissed or relegated to non-medical categories.

"When I was in medical school, it was theF-word," Wood said. "You didn't
even say it around other physicians. I was very intrigued to think there
was a medical entity you could choose not to believe in, like a ghost or a
fairy... I've always kind of stuck up for the underdog, and fibromyalgia
patients are kind of the underdogs of the medical world." Despite recent
progress, Wood said, "I've been at the same institution for 10 years, and
there's still tremendous hostility toward the disorder (fibromyalgia) and
toward the diagnosis from people who certainly should know better."

Chronic pain patients and their advocates cite several factors behind the
lingering skepticism among many doctors. One is the lack of verifiable
causes. The ailments arise gradually in some patients, while others point
to a specific traumatic event as the trigger. The trauma can be physical -
in Anderson's case, being kicked in the face by a horse - or emotional,
such as a divorce or the death of a spouse.

Advocates say the varying intensity of symptoms also fosters doubts. "The
illness can wax and wane, and when people feel better oftentimes they push
themselves so others see them up doing what normal people would do, and
the next week they're back in bad," Matallana said. "That doesn't make
sense; we think of illness as being continuous."

Wood, noting that doctors dislike uncertainty, said many general
practitioners are loath to admit they don't have an explanation for a
patient's complaints and react by questioning the patient's description.
"I don't think it makes me popular with my colleagues, but we're trained
to be little gods and anything that challenges our god-like capacity we
dismiss," Wood said. "(A doctor) could say, 'There's nothing to
objectively demonstrate you're really sick. How do I know you're sick?'
You have to trust the patient's report, which we're often not willing to
do when it comes to pain."

Patients say it often becomes clear they know much more about their
conditions than the doctors charged with treating them.
Haddad of
Davenport has attended countless seminars on chronic fatigue syndrome
since being diagnosed with it, and she said most doctors dispense merely
obvious advice - eat right, sleep right, lose weight.

"A lot of health-care providers feel uncomfortable because of the limits
of their expertise," said Dr. Roland Staud, a professor of medicine at the
University of Florida specializing in fibromyalgia. "Many physicians
wanted these patients to be seen by psychologists and psychiatrists and
did not feel equipped to deal with this."


A gender issue

Matallana and others say the gender factor also affects perceptions of
fibromyalgia. The preponderance of patients are women, and advocates cite
a long history of medical authorities dismissing female- oriented
illnesses as forms of hysteria. "You have to look back on the medical
community - it has basically been male-dominated," Matallana said. "I
don't think it's something they have done intentionally, but I know when
you have experienced something yourself it's much easier to understand
what it really is."

Lakeland's Jiwa Farrell was diagnosed at age 16 with lupus, an autoimmune
disorder that often mimics fibromyalgia and chronic fatigue syndrome and
disproportionately affects women. "I'm not trying to make this a feminist
movement or anything," she said, "but... it amazes me how many drugs they
have out for ED (erectile dysfunction) all of a sudden, and we haven't had
a new drug for lupus since the '60s."

Fibromyalgia and other chronic pain disorders sometimes occur in family
clusters. For example, Bodner said her two daughters, both in their 20s,
have been told they have fibromyalgia since she received her own
diagnosis, and several other local patients also said relatives share
their ailments. The phenomenon might suggest a genetic component to the
disorders, but to a skeptical mind it can also raise the prospect of
suggestibility.

Confusing matters further, fibromyalgia and related disorders seem
intertwined with psychological components. Many patients exhibit signs of
depression, leading to a chicken-and-egg question about the relation
between psychological distress and physical pain.

"The question that was raised in the past was in what category of medical
illness these symptoms would fall," said Staud, the UF professor. "Many
physicians believed they would fall in the psychological-psychiatric area,
where some physicians believed it was in the purely physical area, and of
course thetruth is halfway in between, because for 200 years we know
there is no mind-body dichotomy.Every illness has these components. To
say someone has a purely psychological illness - this is not an up-to-date
approach."


Patient profiling

Dr. Edward Lubin of Winter Haven's Gessler Clinic said some general
practitioners engage in "patient profiling" when they encounter the
typical fibromyalgia patient - a middle-aged woman complaining of vague
pains. Lubin, a pain-management specialist, also cited the financial
pressures that limit the time doctors spend with each patient,
discouraging a thorough exploration of the patient's medical history and
fostering cynical reactions. "Some physicians have a sketch in their
minds," Lubin said, "so when a patient comes to their office with
complaints that can be treated with either antidepressants or narcotics,
they immediately have a picture in their mind of a patient, and they
either don't explore the nature of it or essentially they punt the patient
to a pain management doctor."

Lubin said some doctors dismiss patients with vague complaints of pain as
hypochondriacs or malingerers, lazy people looking for an excuse not to
work. Lubin said it doesn't help matters that he and other doctors
regularly encounter true malingerers, about whom they must make judgments
to determine government disability payments. "Every doctor is faced with
being a useful idiot, being a tool for somebody who wants to get out of
work," said Lubin, who trained at Yale and Harvard. "I'd rather you fooled
me once and then I could say, 'Shame on you,' rather than try to prevent
my ego from ever being bruised by assuming everyone whoever asked me for a
pill for their pain is a drug-seeker. We can't lose our humanity just
because we're afraid of being hoodwinked."

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(c) 2007 The Ledger

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I've dealt with some doctors who ignored my long history of employment, because all they saw before them was a woman who "doesn't want to work" and "wants to be a housewife", never mind that I've always worked and never wanted to be a housewife.   My husband firmly believed that there was something wrong with me until a doctor planted the seed that the whole problem was that I "wanted to be a housewife and didn't have the guts to tell him I didn't want to work any more."  Instead of standing up to the doctor that he didn't know me very well, my husband bought into it that all women want to be housewives, and started to believe the doctor more than what he saw with his own eyes. 

Unfortunately, we moved for my husband's career, and I wound up with another doctor who, as the article notes, "questioned the patient's report".  I described classic CFS symptoms, but because they didn't match up with the symptoms of depression, he dismissed them, explaining later that "nothing you said made sense".  Had he known the symptoms of CFS, what I told him would've made perfect sense, but as soon as I revealed my marital status was Divorced, he leapt to the diagnosis of post-divorce depression, and nothing would budge him off that, not even reports that the anti-depressants weren't helping.  His ego required him to believe that I was mistaken, not that he was mistaken.

 
 

Sunday, April 1, 2007

What's being covered up?

http://ncf-net.org/forum.htm

"In this important essay, the NCF examines and reports on keynote discrepancies between medical observations made during the time period of the Lake Tahoe outbreak (1984 - 1986) and what was published in the Annals of Internal Medicine journal article (1992) on the Tahoe outbreak itself. One discrepancy is further highlighted and exacerbated by recently published research (2006) that not only confirms the initial Tahoe observations but expands on them as well. The NCF questions the rationale as to why the early medical test results failed to make it to the Annals article and ultimately to the general patient population. The NCF's research is discussed within the context of these scientific observations."

"Not only did Cheney's patients suffer from a B-cell deficiency but several of these patients produced abnormally low levels of several classes of immunoglobulins as well. Johnson stated, "One of the most striking immunological aberrations Wormsley observed, however, was abnormal ratios of T-cell subsets. T-cells are a major category of immune system cell; they regulate production of disease-fighting antibodies. Two primary T-cell subsets are "helper and suppressor" T-cells, which boost and suppress antibody production, respectively. 

In AIDS the normal ratio tends to be dramatically skewed in favor of suppressors. Since this finding is virtually diagnostic of AIDS, Cheney and Peterson were curious to know the T-cell subset profile in the Tahoe malady....Wormsley's result showed that four of five Tahoe patients did have abnormal helper-suppressor ratios. But, unlike the ratios in AIDS sufferers, they were low in the numbers of suppressor cells. Instead of one-to-two or one-to-three, which are typical of healthy people, the Incline patients had helper-suppressor ratios of five-to-one, ten-to-one, and higher. It was the mirror image of AIDS."

[Cognitive Behavioral Therapy] "is based upon the thinking that one's illness is due to the wrong way of viewing their lives or of past bad experiences.  One survey done by the 25% ME Group found CBT was the treatment that was the most unhelpful one offered with only GET (Graded Exercise Therapy) getting worse results.  These are the two treatments suggested by our own Centers of Disease Control and Prevention (CDC).  Both are unproven and GET has been proven to actually be harmful to pateints thatresult in relapses that have been found to last weeks, months, or even years."

"The CDC, from the year 2000 to 2003, has had committee meetings to change the definition of CFS in order to make it a mere psychological fatiguing illness and to bypass the much more stringent 1994 research criteria that physicians have relied upon.  They published a paper in 2005* that watered down "CFS" and eliminated any thought of it actually being M.E. "

"The first carefully documented epidemic noted by a medical journal occured in Los Angeles in 1934.  Doctors, nurses and patients got sick during a polio outbreak.  Yet, they didn't have polio.  They had muscle weakness (no, it wasn't dubbed "fatigue" then), invountary muscle contractions, muscle twitching, myoclonic problems, sensory abnormalities and parathesias, vasomoter changes and some had muscle inflammation.  It was called benign poliomyelitis.  It is now called CFIDS (chronic fatigue immune dysfunction syndrome) or CFS (chronic fatigue syndrome) or ME (myalgic encephalomyelitis) or a few other names.  There are patients alive today who still suffer from this original outbreak.  They have been diagnosed, more recently, with ME.  Although the medical journal reported on the 200 that got sick at the Los Angelos County Gereral Hospital, many more in that area got sick that same summer. A U.S. Health Bulletin described the chronic polio-like illness as "atypical polio." The same year, an epidemic was taking place in England at the Royal Free Hospital.  Those who are still living have been rediagnosed with ME."

[Although only 240 people have been infected with bird flu and all of them worked with birds] "CDC has a lot to say about an impending "bird flu epidemic" that they want to try to stave off while they ignore an epidemic that is already among us and has been for years."

 

 

Yes, what about the millions of people who have been suffering with CFS for the past quarter century?  I've had it for 20 years.  But because it is not a virus that is commonly tested for, I've gotten diagnoses of anxiety, laziness, depression, hating my husband, hating my job, and defrauding the disability system. 

NCF recommends the following blood tests: Immune/Lymphocyte profile via flow cytometry - Absolute and percentage for each of the following cell markers:
CD3 - Total Lymphocytes
CD4 - Helper T-cells
CD8 - Cytotoxic/Suppressor T-cells
CD19 - Mature B-cells

These tests have not been done on me, probably because doctors who are convinced I'm just a depressed divorcee or anxiety-ridden woman or housewife wannabe are afraid that they'll see objective proof that CFS is real. 

While those tests were not done, I did have, as part of the application process for a fibromyalgia clinical trial, a C Reactive Protein test, which tests for infection or inflammation.  Normal is 5.  My first test was a 28.  The result was so "off the charts" [doctor's words] that he was convinced it had to be lab error.  I went back in, had the test re-done, and the nurse used the words "sky high" -- the re-test was even higher, 30 -- 6x normal.  That kicked me out of the clinical trial, but gave me the objective evidence I needed for my disability application. 

Unfortunately, the judge, who also espouses the theory that there's nothing physically wrong with CFS patients, simply ignored the test results.  There's not a word in his decision about this piece of objective evidence that could not be discounted as "lies" and fakery.  Clearly, he hopes that the Court of Appeal will not look through every page of the 6" file to find the two pages that prove that this is objectively a physical illness and not some scheme to Get Rich Quick on the pittance that Disability pays.

I'd get rich a helluva lot quicker if I could go back to work.  This morning, I saw my old job title advertised at $56,000 -- more than four times what I'd be getting from Disability.  Plus, that job includes medical/dental and retirement plan contributions ... something I won't get with Disability.  Assuming I ever get Disability, since it's clear that this judge will never consider any evidence of physical illness.  Any evidence -- whether my testimony, friends' testimony, or doctors' reports -- that says there's something physically wrong with me that is visible to others is simply dismissed as "not credible".  The blood test results will never see the light of day if he can help it.  Putting thousands of dollars of immune function testing and brain scans on my credit card probably wouldn't help me, either -- more than likely, he'll stubbornly refuse to acknowledge that evidence exists, too.

Just like CDC, to this day, slips into their press conferences that the real problem in CFS is not the virus that Elaine DeFreitas identified 20 years ago, but things like "stress" and "child abuse".  The real truth -- the truth that's been known to doctors who actually treat the patients -- has to be swept away in order to make believable the notion that CFS can be cured with anti-depressants and talk therapy, and is nothing more than an emotional basket case who cannot deal with real life and takes to her bed.

The real truth is that most CFS patients, including this one, drag themselves to work while getting ever sicker, and take to their beds only when it is physically impossible for them to stand up long enough to get dressed.  The real truth is that the patients involved in the CFS epidemics report a virus or other infectious onset, not psychological problems.  The real truth is that I got a virus with a high fever BEFORE I got married, so it's not something that has to do with having a husband, and that I had a severe relapse WHILE I was married, so it's not something that has to do with being divorced.  It may be more convenient to blame my marital status, but it's not accurate.  Nor is much of the information being circulated about CFS accurate.  Research shows that anti-depressants are completely useless; research shows that the only treatment worse than psychotherapy is exercise; and these are the treatments that are most often recommended by doctors, because the media keep repeating the inaccurate theories and the evidence of objective physical abnormalities rarely sees the light of day in the mainstream media.  (e.g., Dr. Gow's finding of blood abnormalities rated a sentence in CNN's daytime crawl, but disappeared from the crawl within a couple hours, and was never reported orally on CNN, nor on their website, nor, to the best of my knowledge, in any other TV station or US newspaper)

The truth is covered up by those with ulterior motives.  It recently came out that CDC's head researcher into CFS isn't a virologist, but a nationally-recognized expert on stress.  As the saying goes, "if the only tool you have is a hammer, every problem looks like a nail".  He knows nothing about virology, but he knows how to attribute things to stress, so he talks about what he knows best. 

Perhaps the problem can be solved by putting someone else in charge -- a virologist.  Someone who understands infectious diseases.  Someone who specializes in MEDICINE and not psychobabble. 

Thursday, March 29, 2007

Tis Spring

Tis Spring, and my allergies and sinuses are combining for a double-whammy.  Nine out of the last ten days, I have woken up with a headache.  Which means that nine out of the last ten days, I would have called into a job sick, because I never know early in the morning whether this is the one that will clear up a little or not.

There have been days where, by late afternoon, I feel up to doing a little work.  But in a "real job" with 8:30 to 5 office hours, by the time I'd decide I could do a little work, and get over there on the bus, it would be the end of the business day.

Yet, despite having this explained to him time and again, the Disability judge stubbornly persists in believing that someone would be willing to offer me permanent employment, no matter how many sick days I take in winter and spring. 

Or that my symptoms would all go away if I got a job.  Except that when I started my own business, my symptoms did not go away just because I had work to occupy my mind -- I did exactly what was recommended to me: focused my thoughts on my work instead of my health, and lost clients every winter and spring because getting out of bed and sitting at a desk and trying to work just made the symptoms worse.  As the symptoms got worse, it got harder to concentrate on the work in front of me.  The pain would reach a point that I couldn't even SEE the work in front of me. 

But my testimony that I have tried to work and had major problems with it was never considered as valid as the judge's speculation that there's an employer with unlimited sick leave who would tolerate all my symptoms and, essentially, pay me for showing up without requiring any actual work. 

If you know such an employer, give them my resume'.  I'll show up when I can, leave when I need to, and do a little work now and then.  On their part, they have to guarantee not to fire me for excessive absenteeism, sleeping at my desk, or the quality/quantity of my work. 

It's nearly noon, and I still don't have it in me to work.  When I tried to proofread this blog post, my headache got worse.  I can type with my eyes closed, but I can't proofread that way.

And so, although I was hoping to get some work done today, I'm going back to bed until the headache lets up enough to do something without making it worse.

Monday, March 26, 2007

Doctor Speaks Out -- Breaks Taboo

I have been taken to task by members of the medical community for daring to expose the truth that some doctors are incompetent and make misdiagnoses.

It will be interesting to see what those same people have to say about "How Doctors Think", the new book by Dr. Jerome Groopman, a Harvard Medical School professor and a honcho at the respected Beth Israel Deaconess Medical Center. After seeing incompetence and misdiagnosis affected friends and family, Dr. Groopman set out to find out how this happens.

Non-fiction author Ron Chernow praises "In this splendid and courageous book, Dr. Jerome Groopman lifts the veil on possibly the most taboo topic in medicine: the pervasive nature of misdiagnosis."

I am very curious to see whether the medical community calls Dr. Groopman the same names they have called me for breaching this taboo, or whether they praise him for finally educating them on how to avoid being sued for malpractice. Quite often, the problem is simply that the doctors didn’t listen. Groopman documents that patients are interrupted, on average, after just 18 seconds. This can be the difference between hearing the two symptoms that are compatible with depression and the third one that changes the diagnosis to CFS. My own medical records prove that doctors don’t listen – there are many things in there that I never said, twisting of facts, and flat-out lies.

For years, I suffered from daily digestive problems. Since the first doctor had convinced himself that I gained weight because I sat in front of the fridge stuffing my face at 3 AM whenever I couldn’t sleep, he missed the real cause. A doctor who did listen, who asked the right questions instead of deciding he didn’t need to ask questions because he knew what the answers would be, solved the problem in minutes, with a bottle of antacid pills that cost a whopping $3.

By listening instead of filling in the blanks with assumptions, he figured out that the problem was not that I was eating at 3 AM, but that I was NOT eating at 3 AM. I’d collapse into bed, exhausted, at 5 PM, too exhausted to get back up, and not eat anything for 12+ hours, leaving my stomach acid nothing to work on. There were times I was too exhausted to fix dinner, and didn’t eat for 18 hours between lunch and breakfast the next day. The only difference between the two doctors was that one "knew" that "every depressed woman eats non-stop" and the other treated me as an individual, not a statistic, asking what I did, not assuming that I do what other women do. (In fact, weight gain from altered metabolism is a common problem in CFS, and has nothing to do with increased caloric intake.)

The very first story Groopman tells in the introduction is very similar to mine: a woman with chronic digestive problems whose life was saved because after 15 years of misdiagnosis and wrong treatment, a doctor finally decided to think outside the box. Dozens of doctors, multiple hospitalizations, numerous psychological assumptions, and everyone missed that her problem wasn’t in her head or her stomach: she was allergic to gluten. Doctors had almost killed her by telling her to eat carb-heavy meals to gain weight – giving her massive doses of precisely the foods that she was allergic to.

I’m not a doctor. I’m a patient. I was only two pages into the introduction when Groopman said the sentence that leapt out at me, after being told to eat easily-digested carbs "the more she ate, the worse she felt." I knew the problem right then. It took the doctors till page 15 to settle on celiac sprue as the proper diagnosis. Why? Because I’m NOT a doctor. I subscribe to B.F. Synhorst’s theory that "Historically, illnesses are attributed to temperament when science lacks, or refuses to seek, answers".  I don’t automatically blame the patient; when the answer isn’t obvious, I think outside the box. I’ve also, as a patient, heard a lot of other patients say "doctors misdiagnosed my problem for years, but when one suggested celiac, I recovered quickly". What made me a better diagnostician than all the doctors this woman saw? I’ve listened to what other patients have told me about their experiences, and I spotted a detail that got lost in the big picture because I’ve heard this story many times before and know how other doctors solved the problem.

Similarly, we’ve all heard doctors say that it’s haaaaaaaard to diagnose CFS. Then why is it that CFS patient support groups can diagnose it with near-100% accuracy? Once again, because we listen. We’ve heard it all before, we know what tell-tale phrases will spring up in a True CFS patient. Some of us studied CFS under the medical care of one of the nationally-recognized experts (and others have read their books till they’re committed to memory); we actually know more than the average PCP about CFS because we’ve immersed ourselves in it since the 1980s.

Groopman writes that medical students are taught "Only after all the data are compiled should you formulate hypotheses about what might be wrong." Unfortunately, if you begin interrupting after just 18 seconds, you can’t possibly have all the data. The doctor who finally correctly diagnosed the patient’s celiac sprue did just the opposite. He asked her to begin at the beginning, the first symptoms, the doctors, the tests, and let her talk all the way through to the end, listening all the way. By doing so, he picked up clues that others missed.  He started fresh, with an open mind, instead of assuming that the prior diagnoses were correct and the only reason treatment wasn't working was because the patient was non-compliant.

William Osler said that if you listen to the patient, he is telling you the diagnosis. I’ve had doctors blame my divorce for symptoms that started years earlier when I was married, but that was ancient history and they didn’t want to listen to it. Faster and easier to blame the divorce, but that leads to misdiagnosis, because they’ve missed the part where "I have never felt right since the virus in 1987", the part that means it’s most decidedly NOT post-divorce depression. Groopman agrees, "If the patient is inhibited, or cut off prematurely, or constrained into one path of discussion, then the doctor may not be told something vital."

Social psychologist Judy Hall observes "The doctor is supposed to be emotionally neutral and evenhanded with everybody, and we know that’s not true." CFS literature is filled with stories of women who were given psychiatric diagnoses while men with the same symptoms were "really sick".

Unbeknownst to each other, a friend and I saw the same doctor; when we compared notes afterward, he had made the same disparaging remarks to each of us about divorced women; he had the notion that every divorced woman is looking for a way to get alimony so she won’t have to work. He may be a good doctor for men, but he’s going to approach every divorced woman with the attitude that she’s out to fleece her husband. The medical group does nothing to ensure that he sees only male patients, so he continues to misdiagnose divorced women, even those who had been the primary breadwinner and didn’t stand a chance of getting alimony from a near-penniless spouse.

Groopman elucidates "Misdiagnosis is different. ... It reveals why doctors fail to question their assumptions, why their thinking is sometimes closed or skewed, why they overlook the gaps in their knowledge. Experts studying misguided care have recently concluded that the majority of errors are due to flaws in physician thinking, not technical mistakes." "As many as 15% of all diagnoses are inaccurate", primarily because doctors "fell into cognitive traps", like the doctor who consciously or un assumes that all divorced women are scheming to get alimony. Groopman observes "The doctor becomes increasingly convinced of the truth of his misjudgment, developing a psychological commitment to it. He becomes wedded to his distorted conclusion. His strong negative feelings about the patient make it harder for him to abandon that conclusion and reframe the clinical picture differently."

And, in fact, without proper treatment, both my friend and I failed to improve, which "proved" to that doctor that the whole problem was we didn’t want to work. He didn’t need to look for any other reason for our symptoms beyond the assumed desire for alimony. When we reported getting progressively worse, he viewed that simply as "proof" that if we couldn’t get him to say we were disabled with our initial symptoms, we were going to exaggerate until we found the level at which he was convinced of our disability.

Unfortunately, both of us had very real medical problems, which really did become worse and caused further physical damage when they were not properly treated, but because he was filtering everything we said through "divorcee wants alimony", he never once considered that we were telling the truth.

My friend, thank God, got to a different medical group in time, and is now back at work. He and other members of his medical group strung me along with empty promises until it was too late for me to make a full recovery.

MORE COMMENTS AS I GET FURTHER INTO BOOK...

Sunday, March 25, 2007

Talk Therapy Doesn't Improve CFS

Cognitive Behavioral Therapy -- thought by some to be the "cure" for CFS proved to be a failure in this test.  Patients complained less about their impairments but the actual objectively-measured impairments themselves did not improve.

Proving once again what patients have been saying for years: you can tell us that we are not sick, you can try to make us believe that we are not sick, but in the long run, all the talking and positive thinking does not change the reality, because this is a virus, not a psychological problem, and viruses cannot be cured by talking about your problems.

To tell a CFS patient that their problems are all in their head is as insulting as telling a cancer patient they don't need surgery, just a head-shrinker.

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Source: Journal of Neurology, Neurosurgery, and Psychiatry
        Vol. 78, #4, pp 434-436
Date:   March 21, 2007
URL:    http://jnnp.bmj.com/cgi/content/full/78/4/434
        http://www.jnnp.com


[Short report]

The effect of cognitive behaviour therapy for chronic fatigue syndrome on
self-reported cognitive impairments and neuropsychological test performance
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Hans Knoop, Judith B Prins, Maja Stulemeijer, Jos W M van der Meer, Gijs
Bleijenberg
Hans Knoop, Gijs Bleijenberg, Expert Centre Chronic Fatigue, Radboud
  University Nijmegen Medical Centre, Nijmegen, The Netherlands
Judith B Prins, Maja Stulemeijer, Department of Medical Psychology, Radboud
  University Nijmegen Medical Centre, Nijmegen, The Netherlands
Jos W M van der Meer, Department of Internal Medicine, Radboud University
  Nijmegen Medical Centre, Nijmegen, The Netherlands
Correspondence to: H Knoop, Expert Centre Chronic Fatigue, Radboud University
  Nijmegen Medical Centre, P O Box 9011, 6525 EC Nijmegen, The Netherlands;
  j.knoop@nkcv.umcn.nl

Received 26 June 2006
Revised 14 November 2006
Accepted 15 November 2006


Abstract

Background
Patients with chronic fatigue syndrome (CFS) often have concentration and
memory problems. Neuropsychological test performance is impaired in at least
a subgroup of patients with CFS. Cognitive behavioural therapy (CBT) for CFS
leads to a reduction in fatigue and disabilities.

Aim
To test the hypothesis that CBT results in a reduction of self-reported
cognitive impairment and in an improved neuropsychological test performance.

Methods
Data of two previous randomised controlled trials were used. One study
compared CBT for adult patients with CFS, with two control conditions. The
second study compared CBT for adolescent patients with a waiting list
condition. Self-reported cognitive impairment was assessed with
questionnaires. Information speed was measured with simple and choice
reaction time tasks. Adults also completed the symbol digit-modalities task,
a measure of complex attentional function.

Results
In both studies, the level of self-reported cognitive impairment decreased
significantly more after CBT than in the control conditions. Neuropsychological
test performance did not improve.

Conclusions
CBT leads to a reduction in self-reported cognitive impairment, but not to
improved neuropsychological test performance. The findings of this study
support the idea that the distorted perception of cognitive processes is more
central to CFS than actual cognitive performance.

Abbreviations: CBT, cognitive behavioural therapy; CFS, chronic fatigue
syndrome; CIS, checklist individual strength; CIS-conc, checklist individual
strength-concentration; SDMT, symbol digit modalities task; SIP-ab, sickness
impact profile-alertness behaviour; SOCI, self-observation of cognitive
impairment

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Chronic fatigue syndrome (CFS) is characterised by severe fatigue, lasting
longer than 6 months and leading to functional impairment. The fatigue is not
the result of a known organic disease or ongoing exertion, and not alleviated
by rest. According to the Centre for Disease Control definition of CFS,
impaired concentration and/or memory is an additional symptom criterion.1 The
level of self-reported cognitive impairments in CFS is high2 and contributes
to the social and occupational dysfunctions of patients with CFS.3

Studies evaluating neuropsychological functioning in patients with CFS with
neuropsychological tests yielded conflicting results.4 Reduced speed of
(complex) information processing is the most consistently found impairment.3
5 6 However, several studies found no cognitive impairments7 and other
studies identified a subset of patients with defective performance.8 9

Fatigue-related cognitions and behaviour can perpetuate CFS.10 Several
controlled trials have shown that cognitive behavioural therapy (CBT) aimed
at these perpetuating factors leads to a reduction in fatigue and
disabilities.11

The first hypothesis tested was that CBT for CFS also results in a reduction
of self-reported cognitive impairments. The second hypothesis was that the
neuropsychological test performance of patients with CFS improves after CBT.
Data of two previous CBT trials12 13 were used to test the hypotheses.


MATERIALS AND METHODS

Patients

The first study from which data were used compared the effects of CBT for
adults with CFS with natural course and support groups12 in a multicentre
randomised controlled trial. Assessments were done at baseline, and at 8 and
14 months. An intention-to-treat analysis showed a reduction in fatigue and
functional impairment after CBT. In two of the three participating treatment
centres, neuropsychological tests were part of the assessments. Consequently,
data from neuropsychological test performance were available for a subset of
233 (78 CBT; 76 natural course; 79 support group) of the total group of 278
patients. The mean (SD) age of this group was 36.8 (10.2) years, 182 (78%)
were female and median illness duration was 41 months. The second study was a
randomised controlled trial comparing CBT for adolescents with CFS13 with a
waiting list condition. A total of 69 patients were randomly assigned to the
conditions. Assessments were done at baseline and at 5 months. The results
showed a greater decrease in fatigue and functional impairment in the CBT
group. Neuropsychological data of 67 patients were available (33 CBT; 34
waiting list). The mean (SD) age of the group was 15.6 (1.3) years, 59 (88%)
were female and median illness duration was 18 months.


Questionnaires assessing self-reported cognitive impairments

Checklist individual strength-concentration

In both studies, the severity of concentration problems over the past 2 weeks
was assessed with the subscale concentration of the checklist individual
strength (CIS) that consists of five items on a seven-point scale. The score
can range between 5 and 35.3 12 13


Sickness impact profile-alertness behaviour

In adults, the self-observed effect of cognitive impairments on daily
functioning was assessed with the subscale sickness impact profile-alertness
behaviour (SIP-ab) of the sickness impact profile.14 The subscale has 10
items, each item is weighed and the score can range between 0 and 777. No
such instrument was available for adolescents.


Self-observation of cognitive impairment

In adolescents, the frequency of cognitive impairments was determined with a
structured diary. Patients rated both concentration and memory impairment
separately on a daily self-observation list four times a day for 12 days
(0=no impairment; 1=impaired). The percentage of concentration problems and
memory problems (both number of assessments with a problem divided by 48
times 100) were added and then divided by two to calculate the mean
percentage of incidents of cognitive impairment.


Neuropsychological tests

Reaction time task

The reaction time task consisted of two subtests, simple and choice reaction
time tasks. Both are described in detail elsewhere.8 15 In a previous study,
the reaction times of patients with CFS were slower than that of healthy
controls on both tasks.8


Symbol digit modalities task

The symbol digit modalities task (SDMT)16 was used in the adult study as a
measure of complex attention. In previous studies, patients with CFS scored
lower than a matched healthy control group.8 9


Statistical analysis

Statistical analysis was performed using SPSS V.12.01. Significance was
assumed at p,0.05. A multivariate analysis of variance was performed with
self-reported cognitive impairment and reaction time as dependent variables
and treatment as fixed factor. Univariate tests and post hoc analysis are
reported if the multivariate test was significant. For the SDMT, a univariate
analysis was performed, as data were available for a subset of 174 patients
as the SDMT was added later to the test battery. In the adult study, the
dependent variables were the change scores at 14 months from baseline and in
the adolescent study, it was at 5 months from baseline. Reaction times were
transformed by a logarithm transformation. For adults, if data at 14 months
were missing and data 8-months post-treatment were available, the second were
used. In all other cases, missing data were replaced with estimates derived
by single imputation (missing variable analysis regression in SPSS with
baseline value as predictor). For significant treatment effects, effect sizes
were calculated.


RESULTS

Nineteen adult patients (8%) had missing checklist individual
strength-concentration (CIS-conc) and SIP-ab post-treatment data. One patient
had missing data on both reaction time tasks at baseline, for 44 (19%)
patients only baseline data and for 30 (17%) patients only a baseline SDMT
score was available. Two adolescent patients had no SOCI scores at baseline.
For 4 (6%) patients the CIS-conc and SOCI at second assessment were missing.
Two patients had no baseline reaction time and for 13 (20%) adolescents the
reaction times at the second assessment were missing.

In both studies, there were more data missing from neuropsychological tests
than from questionnaires as some patients were willing to mail the
questionnaires, but refused to undergo a second neuropsychological
assessment.


Self-reported cognitive impairments

Adults

The multivariate test (Pillai's trace) showed a significant change in
self-reported cognitive impairments (F(4,460)=4.76; p=0.001). The univariate
tests showed a significant effect of treatment on the change in CIS-conc and
SIP-ab (F(2,230)=8.94; p<0.001 and F(2,230)=4.42; p=0.013). Following CBT,
the decrease in CIS was significantly greater than in both the natural course
(p,0.001) and the support group (p=0.001; table 1). There was a significantly
greater decrease in SIP-ab score after CBT compared with natural course
(p=0.004). The difference between CBT and support group failed to reach
significance (p=0.055).


Adolescents

The multivariate test showed a significant treatment effect on self-reported
cognitive impairments (F2,62=5.03; p=0.009). Univariate tests showed that the
decrease in the CIS-conc and SOCI score was significantly larger in the CBT
group (F(1,63)=6.4; p=0.014 and F(1,63)=6.28; p=0.015).


Neuropsychological test performance

Adults

There was no significant effect of treatment on either reaction time task
(F(4,458)=0.44; p=0.783). There was no significant treatment effect on the
SDMT (F(2,171)=0.73; p=0.484).


Adolescents Multivariate tests showed no significant treatment effect on
either reaction time task (F(2,62)=0.34; p=0.714).


DISCUSSION

The hypothesis that self-reported cognitive impairments decrease after CBT in
patients with CFS was confirmed. Only one comparison in the adult study,
measuring cognitive impairments more indirectly, showed an effect in the
expected direction without reaching significance. The results of the original
adolescent study13 already indicated that concentration problems decrease
after CBT. In that study, the concentration problems were assessed with a
single item evaluating these problems retrospectively over a period of 6
months. This assessment can be easily influenced by situational circumstances
and memory biases, which can be prevented by the use of a diary as in the
present study. No support could be found for the hypothesis that
neuropsychological test performance improves after CBT.

A methodological problem is that in a substantial part of the patients the
neuropsychological data of the second assessment were missing. Furthermore,
in our analysis we assumed that dropout occurred at random, whereas patients
may drop out for non-random reasons. We repeated the analyses, but only on
patients who completed both assessments. Again, there was no significant
treatment effect. Our interpretation is that this indicates that improvement
in self-reported cognitive impairments after CBT is independent of the change
in neuropsychological test performance.

A discrepancy between subjectively reported disabilities versus objectively
measured performance is not limited to the current study. Mahurin et al17
found that the objective cognitive functioning of monozygotic twins
discordant for CFS did not differ, whereas the twin with CFS reported more
cognitive impairments. Metzger and Denney18 showed that patients with CFS
underestimated their cognitive performance. In the study by Vercoulen et al,8
most patients with CFS reported concentration and memory problems, whereas
only a small percentage showed an impaired performance. Given the fact that
patients with CFS perceive their cognitive processes as impaired but
underestimate their actual performance, one would expect that an effective
treatment of CFS would lead to a more accurate perception of one's
performance. The results of the present study are consistent with this
prediction. CBT resulted in decreased complaints about cognitive functioning,
but not in a change in performance. This is also in line with the hypothesis
that a distorted perception of symptoms and performance is a crucial element
of CFS.10


ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS

The authors thank Theo Fiselier for contributing to the selection of
adolescent patients with CFS, Lammy Elving for contributing to the selection
of adult patients and Ria te Winkel and Lida Nabuurs for assisting in data
collection.

Funding: The Health Insurance Council (College van Zorgverzekeraars) funded
the adult CBT study. The Children's Welfare Stamps Netherlands (Stichting
Kinderpostzegels Nederland) and the ME Foundation (ME Stichting) funded the
adolescent CBT study.

Competing interests: none.


TABLE

Table 1 Estimated treatment effect in change score (95% CI) on the dependent variables
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Self-reported cognitive impairments
  Adults                          CBT                      Natural course        Support group
    CIS-conc                      -7.4 (-9.1 to -5.7)+     -2.7 (-4.4 to -1.0)** -3.4 (-5.1 to -1.8)**
    SIP-ab                        -116 (-156 to -76)++     -31 (-72 to -10)**    -61 (-100 to -21)
  Adolescents                     CBT                      Waiting list
    CIS-conc                      -6.8 (-10.5 to -3.5)+++  -0.9 (-4.2 to +2.5)*
    SOCI                          -7.9 (-12.8 to -2.9)1    0.9 (-4.1 to +6.0)*
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Neuropsychological test performance
  Adults                          CBT                      Natural course        Support group
    Simple reaction time (ms)      9 (-9 to 27)            -5 (-23 to 14)        6 (-12 to 24)
    Choice reaction time (ms)     -24 (-51 to 3)           -27 (-54 to 1)        -26 (-53 to 1)
    SDMT                           2.8 (0.8 to 4.8)        2.3 (0.2 to 4.4)      4 (2 to 6)
  Adolescents                     CBT                      Waiting list
    Simple reaction time (ms)     -30 (-53 to -8)          -18 (-41 to 4)
    Choice reaction time (ms)     -12 (-29 to 6)           -10 (-28 to 8)
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CBT, cognitive behavioural therapy; CIS-conc, checklist individual strength-concentration; SDMT,
symbol digit modalities task; SIP-ab, sickness impact profile-alertness behaviour; SOCI, self-
observation of cognitive impairment.
*  Significantly different from the CBT condition, p,0.05.
**  Significantly different from the CBT condition, p,0.01.
+   Cohen's d based on change within treatment condition=1.3.
++  Cohen's d=0.6.
+++ Cohen's d=0.4.


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Saturday, March 24, 2007

Why do we need more proof?

CFS Activist Jill McLaughlin observes:
"Of course we need more research but we do not need to wait for "more
science" or the Holy Grail of a marker or the cause - even to "prove" that
it is "real." NO other illness has been held to this unattainable standard
and if we keep buying into this line of thinking we only hold ourselves
back. There is substantial objective, well-documented evidence of CNS,
immune, endocrine, cardiovascular, and autonomic nervous system
abnormalities, which indicate that it is biologically, not psychologically
determined. We need to keep pushing for recognition and utilization of what
we have and can use now, not always waiting for more".
 

There has been proof that CFS is real since the mid-80s when the first MRI machine in northern Nevada documented brain lesions in CFS patients similar to those seen in MS.  But that didn't fit the portrait that CDC was trying to paint, so this was not publicized.

As time went on, 4000+ research studies were done around the world: viruses were identified, viral damage was documented, neurological problems were diagnosed, and after trying zillions of prescriptions, the only one shown to work more often than not was an anti-viral.  And still there were those who put their hands over their ears, singing Lalalalala, "I can't hear you", because they wanted to find a purely psychological problem.

Any patient who insisted they had no psychological basis for their symptoms was interrogated until the doctor found the one thing, however minor it seemed to the patient, that the doctor could pounce on to yell "aha!"    When I produced diagnoses from psych experts that I had no depression or other psychological diagnosis, what I had was symptoms compatible with someone who had the flu, these same doctors found reasons to believe that they are better qualified to diagnose depression than a psychiatrist. 

When anti-depressants don't work, some doctors insist the problem isn't that there is no depression for them to work on, but because the patient isn't cooperative.  Despite the symptoms, I was still trying to work, yet I was accused of "not wanting to get better and have to go back to work".  Life would have been a lot easier if taking a pill was enough to make me feel well enough to work full-time!  If you don't believe me, YOU try making ends meet on an income of $130 a month.

The standard applied to CFS is unattainable.  They've refused to give it a more serious name until we can prove what causes it, but because of the ridiculous name they've tagged it with, it's difficult to get research funding.  What was wrong with the old name, Myalgic Encephalomyelitis?  Or name it Peterson/Cheney Disease after the two doctors who identified the Incline Village epidemic -- then the name won't have to be changed when a definitive cause is found.  But the same people who refuse to listen to any evidence that this is not a purely psychological problem also refuse to change the name to something that might garner more respect and more research funding.

And then they blame the patients when psychological treatment doesn't cure the virus.


 

Wednesday, March 21, 2007

It doesn't rain but it pours....

With CFS comes a cascade of other problems.

I’ll admit that my sinus headaches started in college. But those were different. They hurt, but they were not blinding, and they were never accompanied by infections. I might use them as an excuse to cut a class I didn’t enjoy, but they didn’t prevent me from doing the things I loved.

After CFS, I went from having pain around my eye socket a few days a year to having pain in my face and scalp dozens of days, sometimes blinding, sometimes on the level of a migraine, requiring me to lie absolutely still in a dark room. (One such day, my friend Peter called to cheer me up and I had to ask him to please not make me laugh, because the vibration even from a light giggle was head-splitting.) I also started having sinus infections rather than just headaches – something that was explained when I learned that CFS damages the immune system. My weakened immune system couldn’t prevent the infection the way it used to.

Soon after the CFS, I began to have problems with wrist tendinitis. Initially, it was assumed to be a result of years of production typing, but then I learned that CFS causes joint and muscle pain.

I also developed digestive problems – first thing in the morning, every single day. For a couple weeks, we thought this was morning sickness, but then came the incontrovertible indication that I wasn’t pregnant, and the problem continued. Again, eventually I learned this is common with CFS: CFS affects many bodily functions because it affects the Central Nervous System. When wrong nerve impulses are sent to the digestive tract, interesting things happen.

I started to fall while walking (tripping over a crack in the sidewalk is different from collapsing from exhaustion after doing a little too much) and to faint without warning – more neurological problems.

In December 1987, I couldn’t make sense of what I was reading, or remember things, or tell time, or do simple math, or find the right word when speaking. I was sure I’d just become world’s youngest Alzheimer’s victim (though I’d never heard of someone going from above-normal to advanced dementia in a matter of months, but if I was going to set records for age I might as well set records for speed, too), until I learned this was just another symptom: the virus that causes CFS also causes lesions in the brain, and Dr. Sheila Bastien has developed a neuropsychological "signature" for CFS that verifies that some partsremain untouched and other functions (like math and memory) are "worse than patients with traumatic brain injury". Apparently thanks to my age and gender, I did eventually recover most of that function, only to lose it again when I relapsed in 2000. At this point, at peak efficiency, I can pass for normal for a couple hours, but I can’t sustain peak efficiency for an 8 hour work day, not even with a long nap in the middle.

At first, some doctors mocked CFS as beyond credibility because patients complained of "every symptom under the sun", but then a neurologist clarified that every symptom on the list could be caused by Central Nervous System dysfunction. (As one of my teachers warned us, "a little learning is a dangerous thing", and never more so than when it’s a generalist who scoffs at something without consulting a specialist who knows that it’s not as bizarre as it sounds.)  If it were truly imaginary, some of those patients would be slipping in symptoms that aren't neurological in nature, but the symptom list remains consistent.

Quite early on, Dr. David Bell observed that whatever the cause of CFS might be, it was something that affected every organ without causing organ damage; and certainly the nerves touch every inch of the body. If you’re just feeling around looking for a swollen liver or enlarged spleen, you aren’t going to be able to feel a nerve dysfunction. But most doctors don’t think to do a nerve conduction study on someone who has digestive problems: it’s easier (and cheaper) to pin the blame on their diet or their stress level.

 
 
 

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